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Today we went to mirina Barrage...nice and hot weather

quiet week

This week, I am aiming to be retful to be ready for this saturday big event. Our christmas party is on this saturday.Oh yah...gotta arrange for Jeff to avail to speak in the other parties.

I am thankful that a long holiday will be coming...Yeah!

Aiya

This morning rushed down to student's place, and the parent is not at home! So came home to clear mails and to get Jeff's jacket dry cleaned!

Well, the good thing is that I finally received my grant for NPL for 01-012009 to 31-12-2009. Praise God. The sad thing is that my current tuition kid want to reduce to once a week and for 1 hour only! I am not confident to succeed in getting his grades up with so little time with him....sad lah.

I had also to work out for more assignments now. Thank God that Choon Mui often text me to tell me that she has assignments for me....wonder if the time can match and the distance required to travel. Gotta trust God. My friend also told me to check our CDAC for assignments but they are all at night which I should be home with the family else, why stay at home? I am confident that God will make a way for me and besides HE knows best for us.

Meanwhile I have to learn to be cheerful and put my trust in Him alone. Today, I was just thinking that I should work on smiling more.... Been living like yet another day to go....when some people are struggling to be alive!!

calligraphy

Just last week, I was told that children should learn calligraphy to enrich their chinese culture. It also helps with chinese. Today, there is a new ink painting course just on 1- 5 Dec at tampines central cc. Hooray!

I am also thinking how to get people to be willing to help with cradle roll. For one thing I know, if I don't find 8 leaders, I can't run else will end up closing it again! I also know that I am finding problems for myself. As much as I know I should serve and be in a state of self denial...I can't help but wonder if I have better things to mind, e.g my children. I totally agree that with children who don't nap, one can be extremely short-fused with them when they interupt with our prepartion. I often deal with it as I wonder and plan for the cluster, cell and my mentoring sessions. No big deal though...the strain is often on my children. That's why, I am better off not serving, isn't it? Why bother??

I am not angry...jus sounding it to make sure that everyone knows that I am a mere mother who is still trying to make ends meet. Trying to manage and be above situations before it gets me!Trying to rise above the turmoils of the day, the routine of daily living and yet experiencing the joy of a mother. Not having the burden of putting bread on the table, not having to report to my superior, not having to tolerate other's slowness, not having to labour! But to lovingly raise my children in the fear of the Lord! Isn't it a tall order? So being at home has a lot to do with myself. The person who says that SAHM is a boring task, is the one who has never done that before. Where is the creditibilty? WHy ask a non-artist their opinion of a painting? Shouldn't we turn to our maker for opinions?

I know what I should be doing staying at home for the past 3 years and the next 4 years...do you?

shopping

Today, I reached my mum's house at 7am. We left at 8am for porridge at Tiong Bahru. Then I brought my children to Orchard. Aiyo...the shops are not open!

Then I wondered around and finally get my job done. I had to carry Khloe as she was sleepy and decided to travel down to Plaza Singapura. Went to Daiso then dawn on me that I need some Christmas decor for the party on 13 Dec Sat 6pm. Quite relunctantly, I bought a few items as I haven't thought of a theme yet. So I will be doing that for next week. I also stepped into "Made with love" shop and almost bought everything! They are all so pretty. My children were busy tearing the place down so I left without buying anything. But I am sure when I have an off- day, I will meet with Susan and get there to browse and buy.

Now, I am thinking of those pretty little things...LUST.

Oh! My friend Ada and Huiling and her family will be coming to our Christmas party!

Roll call

Finally get access to hubby's computer. Had attended a few wedding lately...waiting for our dear brother John and XX and my best friend's wedding next year.

Cradle rocks!

The hand that rocks the cradle rules the world. you can be part of it. Be a teacher in Cradle roll!If anyone in BC is keen, please revert to me asap. Else, I will be looking for you.In fact, to be always in a state of self -denial is easy...always involve in ministries that does not concern you! Of course, you have ample oppurtunties to be a servant. Please think and say, "Katie...I do till death parts us."

School Holiday

Monday, I met Aries at 10.30am, city hall. We went to Popular Bookfest and spent $138!!Kinda of proud to find somethings for christmas doorgift for the children....and of course, assessment books for Jeremiah.

I have been dependent on assessment books to teach him since last year. However, Teach less, learn more thingy din take place in me! Instead of SEED, SHPS is trying out something else. They have no need of textbook for semester 2. It is certainly a good news to know that learning is never confined in books alone. Yet...me....still stuck on assessment books to grill him alive! I can't believe what I am doing when I am alone. He has just completed 1 primary one book! How wicked and old fashion I am!

Well...gotta keep going and believing.

Orientation day

Today, we went to SHPS. Jeff laughed at me when he saw me looking so stressed. Jeremiah enjoyed his orientation and thank God all his classmates seem nice.

What me make me happier is that now I can finally get a copy of the challenging math booklet from my previous school. I had forgotten completely that my dear Joanna is about the same level with Math HOD!

Gotta give up my laptop now for Jereboy to practise his keyboarding skills.

oh no

I had actually wrote alot ....disappeared! Argrr....new laptop!!!can't load pix.

good days are back

Hubby bought a second hand laptop for me to play...so nice of him. 2 more weeks and my children will be with me. Have been thinking what to do with them as this is the last Dec holiday wwith them. 2009 will be exciting as Jere will be in P1 and that means 12.30 - 6.30pm while Khloe will be in PCF from 1-4pm!

Kinda look forward to what I had been waiting for....5 weekdays, 3 should be for tuition, 1 to meet pastor and 1 to swim. Gotta pray that my tuition timing can be well planned such that I can pick Khloe from school at lest thrice a week and hopefully daily for Jere.

As promised, Jere did not have any "NI" need improvement in his report card, which is enough for me! He said that his friends had amny "A" and "B". I choose to praise him and be content with our agreement. So he deserved to be praised and rewarded.

Also I just asked the Chinese teacher what is the best age to send for her class and she said K2. So I did the rite thing...packed jere with so many classes early this year. Now he is still learning piano and swimming only. I think I am OKTO

time to go

I will not be able to update my blog regularly for now as I donot have a laptop anymore.

lately I have been busy with my mum as she is not working. Also, I had been goin to Susan's house to scrap!

Gotta go, Jere like not very well...boss veri sleepy, so I gotta hold the fort with Khloe

scraps n me

i had been going to sue's house to do scraps. She has so kindly welcomed Khloe and me on every Monday and Tuesday. Kinda hooked to it as I enjoy looking for pix and the scraps.

Today, I brought Mac breakfast and Khloe said that we should have a picnic. So the 5 of us sat on the floor and had our breakfast. What is even more exciting for me is the Mac toy is now Ben 10!!! Jere will be over the hill if he knows it! He had been asking me to buy him one toy and I had refused as it is monster...so I told him to pray lor....see what happens!

PSG

hmm...duno if I am doing the right thing. Later this afternoon, I will be attending my first PSG meeting at SHPS. Kinda of excited as instead of being a teacher, now I sit at the other end, a parent. I hope it will be fruitful being a member..contributing to the lives of children in the school.

Later 2nite, my mum will be residing my pl over the weekend. She had fractured her wrist and wun be selling for a period. So tomorrow she will be with me. Will take them to swimming pool and watch how Jere learn swimming. Instead of 8.30 slot, instructor thinks that he be put in another more suitable group! 3.30pm sat! So roasted!

Itz been a week or more.

Last 2 weeks, hubby was very consumed with his sermon...I responded by being available whenever he wants and took the children out when he wanted complete silence.

Thank God is over. Last week I was adventurous. I brought Khloe to Susan's house in the morning and reached home by 11.30am to pick Jereboy home. I also brought them to Christina's house for the children to play together. That was my primary reason. Secondary reason is scrapbooking at Sue's house and collecting old clothes and gown from Gracia! Khloe is wearing Gracia's old clothes when thet are different by 3 months!! Still I am thankful that gOD PROVIDED all that I need. A gown for Khloe and a suit for Jere. Amazing!

Last weekend, I also had my house opening rather than warming as I feel that it is already quite warm. My guests list were mainly people who had never visited my place and a time for me to chat up with ex- colleagues who are SAHM. Thank God my house din collapse! I had 50 guests in the afternoon and 45 guests in the evening! I also thank God for my sis in law who had Mary with her to take care of the children while I tidied up the place and of course my wonderful sister Sally.

This week I intend to keep up with the visiting but Gracia is sick today and abit more war time for Khloe and Josh...

Another week of hope

Thank you Esther once again for sharing your input. I wonder if it is expectation?? I just want him to have a good attitude.

Anyway, Jere behaved well today. Teacher praised him...so he can stop talking if he finds a reason to do so! I am withholding his birthday present till I check with his teacher about his execessive talking. Juli told me to check with my mum and MIL if we were like that when we were young. Indeed. Yesterday, my mum said that I was like Jere...talk and dictate people around. I am so good at bossing around so I wasn't a concern for my mum!

So why is jere so talkative....ME, why is khloe so vain....ME! Disaster...MIrror mirror on the wall....after all these "mirrors" are great teachers!

ASHAMED SAHM(do you notice the alphabets are just jumble up?)

miserable

Jeff said is the lack of HS in my life! I tot perhaps, I had been very angry with jere for the last 2 weeks. I jus wacked him upside down. To the point that I had to bend and break the cane before I do anything bad! Lord...Lord help me to come out of the situation. To let go and let him be.

It is unbearable to wake up each morning to repeat the same instruction, to dress up, drink milk, wear shoes and eat supplememnt. When he returns, go and bathe, eat and take out your work to do!!!!! Its driving me mad!!!!rage rather! So I warned him this morning that I will not do that anymore. So just now, he stood in a daze... I caned him from his back and immediately, he sat down to start hi schoolwork. He delayed his work...taking his own sweet time, so I made him finish the entire book. Now still waiting for him to do his work....pencil rolled off...Khloe came in....distractions...my problem??

mood swings

Must be those mood swings again... Been acting up whenever I am teaching or rather telling Jere what to do. He was so nervous that he had bad stomachache during his HYPY class. He ended up washing his own underwear!!!see how terribe and fierce I am!

Today, I have those panic attacks again... I wonder if I had done enuf to prepare him for Pri 1 next year! I had wanted to start him with P1 work by this term but fail. He still has quite alot to cover before I can buy P1 books. Am I setting myself again?? Such a painful thing to hear him telling me that his friend told him to stop copying. Then I asked him what is it that he had been copying, he said he dun know!!!

Gotta trust and continue to pray for him and I guess esp. me!!! I came back from encounter and Jf expected me to be transformed. Then I blurted out saying that I was there transforming others, as I have to remain faithful, the same yesterday, today and forever!! He laughed. I tot I was quite good at thrilling my hubby...

see this

This is the one that he had so much fun...but poor Gloria. Thank God they grow up together so no one is sour after that.

I am thankful to God for showing and guiding me how to teach Jere. Through this game, he learnt to trust me more and that I can make better decision than him. In turn I prayed for him to be able to make decision that please God alone. I reminded him to be alert as sin creeps in when we let our guard down. When we think it is ok to delay, when we think it is ok to ignore or just a little bit of diobedience. All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

I wonder all these inputs will amount to what? My mum did not teach me so many things... She often tells me to use my eyes to see and learnt. No need of books and enrichement lessons...So I am saved by grace. Amazing grace

yesterday once more

Yesterday, Jeff had taken leave to celebrate my delivery of jere 6 years ago! I am very thankful to God for giving my these little ones to adore and learn.

We started the day at east coast Mac Donald then to Tampines for Wall-E. Bought popcorn and coke and the cost was $32!!! After the show, we led Jere to pick his birthday cake and then to Toysrus to pick a gift! Well...little Khloe also get a gift from daddy. All were happy except our pockets. We took them home and told them to nap, woke them up at 4pm and allowed them to play with their new toys. That evening, we met up with oldies and went to Chinese Garden once more..the last time was 4 years ago! Bought them laterns and some blown up toys at the fair. The most unforgetable for Jere was the ball thingy. And that the story I want to share or rather is the highlight of the day.

He saw the floating ball...I know fear was in his heart...I nudged him and told him to try! It was $3 per child. We suggested Gloria to join in too. Off they went. Jere had a great time trying to balance and run inside the ball while on the water... except that Gloria was having some problems balancing herself. The teaching point was obedience, I told jere. He was shocked that I could read him so well. After the game, I took him aside and said that this $3 is very wekk spent. Ealier that day, he was upset that I had refused to pay her a $4 treat into those jumping float at Tampines pasa malam. I told him that $4 is not worth the try...besides nothing great to jump in such a mini float. I told him to pray and tell God how much he wants the ride. I pointed to him that God hears you coz we both love God. His reponse to God had led us to Chinese Garden and into the fair and into the floating ball. I told him that if he chosen to walk away from the pasa Malam feeling bitter and sour...God will not let you go with such an attitude. He agreed that God loves him and a undivided obedience to parents is important in pleasing God. Praise God.

Today, I was tried again. He pleaded to get a BEN 10 toy which cost $10. just a figurine...no big deal....then as O was trying to convince him not to get the toy, I realised that I had been acceptable to monsters. That might explain why he had nightmares. Also we talked anout hidden sin and lukewarmnesss and also being compromising to wrongs. To cut the story short...my prayers were all answered yesterday and today. I had asked God to help me teach Jere the importance of loving God unconditionally .....ASk me for more details if you would like to hear...(yawnn...)

down memory lane

tHANK yoU tOMMY

Before I deicided to log in to this site, I tot I should visit my good friend's site. Seeing how cute and wonderfull Steffi is now really warms my heart. Especially Tom monkeying with Steffi, her laugther is so contagious. Jere and Khloe saw it thrice and ended up laughing like her!

I was surfing to look for a piano teacher for Jere and had contacted one. Then my itchy fingers proceeded to search for more courses for jere and even to look for phonics lesson for Khloe who will turn 3 soon. Perhaps my idea of letting them enjoy their childhood is not ideal. As it turns out now, Jere is taking 2 lessons, one which is phnoics whichj I am competent to teach but fail. Another one is chinese which I am at a lost. Somehow, getting khloe to start next year may help her to assimilate into formal education in a more comfortable pace. Though Jere is doing well in his chinese as in the results, his usage of mandarine remains low. His reading is having slight improvememnt but again...is he ready for Primary one? Fear and anxiety took control...I became depressed. So thank you Tommy and Lizhen for uploading those cute pictures...reminding me again to trust GOd and be thankful always!

If You are happy...and you know it!

Oh man! I have been like a broken recorder...singing this song dun know how many times! But it is a good way to engage Khloe to physical exercise and following instruction.

This weekend will be encounter and yes...I will be there to stay. Actually I tot I dun have to stay.Watever, my Lord will provide a way for me. This week Jeff has to return to work on Sat!!! Always my faith has to be tested. Gotta rope in my FIL. Hopefully he can entertain both of them till Jeff returns around noon.

Last Monday, I took both to Tampines swimming complex. Paid $1 for adult and $0.50 for each child. There is a fun pool with 2 slides and a raining mushroom. We spent an hour and half just in that fun pool alone. The problem is that I have to take both into the ladies toilet to wait for me while I changed. There is also a children toilet which Jere bathed on his own. While I still have to carry Khloe to rinse as she is afraid of water shower!! That night Jeff said that I can't take Jere into the ladies toilet, he has to wait outside. After some tots, I guess tomorrow I will not wear costume there but shorts. Gotta convince Khloe that I can't be wet since the fun pool is about 0.45m if I am not wrong. Question is whether I can get into the pool with shorts and Ts??? Yah! I also met Karine from Pastor cluster there...she is there teaching Aqua areobics!

Later today I will be going for my checkup at Tanjong Pagar. Free pap smear and breast check! Tomorrow Juli will come and we will go to Sharon's house to visit her twin boys! Come to think of it..I am glad to see 4 others from my school are now SAHM. Praise God. Letz hope that next year package will be more family orientated rather that economy driven!

Swimming

I have been thinking how to plan my time. I tot how to get Jere to learn as many useful stuff before next year he will be in primary 1. He will not have time to learn any other things and I want to honor my words- to have a happy child!

So I was thinking to ask Tim to tag along this swimmming class that I am thinking of... then the Lord sent me a wise woman- Sabrina! I met her at her blk and asked her about swimming- an important survival skill. She reminded me that if my child has water phobia then I should spend the next few months playing in the water before signing him up. Why use the money to see your child struggle to even step into the water..how true!

So I tot I should plan my Monday and Thursday to swim at Tampines public pool! Never do it before...so will be quite a feat! Then today..it must rain twice...is God telling me to hold my horses? Perhaps I should shop for a life jacket for Khloe before going to the pool. Sabrina also reminded me to pray. That is one thing that I totally forgot!

In fact, I was planning a get-away for my family retreat cum celebrating jere's birthday. Then it must fail because boss said that oversea trip will drain him. Then Freddie told me that he has a promotion for hotel rates. I grabbed the tot of it and went ahead to plan what to do for that weekend. Then....Women encounter....I tot I dun have to stay...Wrong! I was expected to stay! So I had to cancel all my plans for family retreat and seek first HIs kingdom.

Then finally I am at ease. I am so rested to go for the encounter first then after that then think about the family retreat! I believe it will take place. So must pray.

I am also excited with Pastor's series on family. I enjoyed last week sermon and certainly is looking forward to hear him this week. I tot it is funny when someone told me that to be busy is equal to BCs! Indeed....what else is better to be busy with?

Again I lose my temper lately, perhaps it is coz fasting is over....energy reload..so start screaming and yelling again! I cried and apologised to my children for my lack of love. I still struggle with wanting my way first."Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit...humble yourselves therefore under God's mighty hand..."

Now I am quite busy preparing for encounter weekend. so gotta go!

Thank God!

Thank God that the CK prg went rather smoothly as planned. My team was great and I had a great time laughing at our skit too!

This week will be rather quiet as I am kinda moodless! Gotta leave the house thrice this week coz my tuition kid cannot make it as planned. I am also spending some time personally with my mum tis thursday, bringing her to c Dr and before that have breakfast with her! Then I will go for my checkup, tuition then home. Wun be meeting my gals this week as Jack's grandma had just passed away and dearie Sue seemed unwell!

However, today I am reminded that God detest people who are lukewarm. To be cold towards God is a nono! Certainly, one must strive to be hot for God!

I made it

I am so thankful that I had gone thru the 2 and half day fast! Yahoo. Gotta be discipline and be on track again...after a long haul!

Emma is also born...Kevin's daughter..Praise God!

Btw, I am so thrilled that this sat is national day! Ha! Ha! The end of our fasting period... Well...I am thankful for my husband support to fast with me. He really encouraged me tremendously.

This week, I am preparing for National Day CK prg. Had just bought some tibits for the goodie bag and still looking for abit more. This thursday will visit Sue with children to do some scrapbooking.

I am also thankful and touched that the ladies had graciously left notes for my gift. I am so touched. In fact, when I read it...it is still amazing grace.

Sometimes, I think that I should just organize a get together for all SAHM, and hear each of our thanksgiving.

My niece- Fayra

Hi! My niece at 2.5kg and was 36 weeks and 6 days old! Praise the Lord for HIs love endures forever.

Yesterday, at Mt Alernvia, I asked my brother if I could pray a blessing for Fayra, he agreed! Who would miss blessings? Everyone wants blessings.

Like arrows in the hands of a warrrior....so mothers..sharpen your arrows daily and get ready to shoot!

Fayra is coming!

All glory to God. This morning, after reading the booklet, I decided to sms my brother regarding the money that he owed me and told him to contra with mum instead. I also told him to take care and be ready for Fayra.

2 hours later, when my phone rang, I told Khloe that it may be kim kim telling us about Fayra. True! Fayra will be born in 3-4 hours time! God is with us....espec now as I have taken the step of faith this year once again....aftera good 5 years break! Last year, I tried, but ended hospitalised!

Lastly, I want to remind myself that the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world. I am glad to pen these now, witnessing the grace and experiencing His goodness. My daily living is teaching me to live simply and to see that God is in biz with me. Read today 40 day fast book.

ALso...my surprise is also this year, my hubby took leave to be with me! He had never taken leave for any reason except for church retreat or related. How much I am loved??beyond words...yesterday, I also received my birhtday gift from my dearest friends....and my best friend suddenly popped by and spent the afternoon with me....I wouldn't experince HIS goodness if I had been slogging in office now.

The day

After tonight...the trumpet will sound. The begining of 3 day fast. Today the fast booklet spoke to me! I am reminded to live simply. So I have to forget the Mango clothes I saw yesterday, the Taiwan trip that I have been thinking.

Now, I have reduced jere's class to just HYPY and reading. Will not be continuing Art. Have to wait for another season for Abacus to start! What a pity! After I allowed him to decide to continue or not, Jeff and MIL told me that abacus is good for him! Obvious lah...otherwise, I would not have been scouting around for so so long. And to bear all their complaints that I had piled Jere with too many lessons! So fuming to think about it! I must say that MUM knows best! So stop meddling with me!!!

Perhaps I should just wait for 2 months before starting Jere with his piano. Meanwhile, I will get him to complete his assessment books and erhmm....take him swimming!

O Lord, enlarge my hands to do and plan. May it please you. BTW, I was asked to take up HARP coordinating. Wonder if I am making a right move??

Had calculated....gotta wait for another 3 years before I apply full-time. Will not be doing full-time tuition, as no CPF. wanna pay off HDB loan asap! Says my lord.

Kinda of scare to work again! Wonder how the Lord will pave the way for me to return to my first- love- Teaching. Also I had been sitting on the testimony which I am still wondering about. Will it stand after 4 years later? Will it be useful then?
I'm sure if it is HIS purpose, I will get a position in SHPS in due time. Gotta act in faith. Without faith, cannot please God.

Thank You Esther

I jus browse thru Esther's blog. I am so encouraged to read her entries. They are so real and so happening. Like mine! Everyday is a challenge, an oppurtuniy for mothers to trust and yell and scream of HIS goodness. Well...depending what state we are in.

Indeed, every child is different so we have to perserve in training the child the way he should go...so that when he is old, he will not depart from it. What more can we ask...but God to be my help...

We are blessed and priviledged to be at home, consider the 40 day fast booklet. How does it speak to you. Well....I mean what God had given you..more will be given.

Spiderman's uncle told him that "with great power, comes great responsibilities." So I had told Jere that the bible said that too! Again I have to remind him that that what we have are blessings that God gave.

Jere is so excited each time Jeff tells him that petrol price drops. Coz we've been praying so that extra cash can be put aside for our family retreat....

God does not look at the outside but what we are inside. E.g samuel went to select David....he was the last likely candidate to be King. Yet he was the one! Similarly, I can't see what jere and khloe are up to in future. Thank God He can. See...those who have ears, let them hear.

The stranger on the road to Emmaus

Hmm..I've just started reading this book this morning. Thick book to digest, but I'm sure I will swallow them well if I chew on it bit by bit!

Same goes for God's word. Chew, meditate day and night...soon you will be able to swallow it.

This week will be a rather quite and not easy week to go through! The tot of 3 day fast makes my feet weak! Do you?

Oh yes, I must applaud Julianna for reminding the speaker that Titus 2:5 "...busy at home."1 Tim 5:14 "...to manage their homes..." are words for NIV that tells women to be at home.

Certainly, work is important as work at home is still work. So listen up!

I am also tinking if Ican get friends to go with me on the 16 august a sat to Suntec convention hall to attend a seminar organised by Channel news asia. Topic is "perfecting parenting." $11 per person, register before 31 July. 2-5.30pm.

Gotta pray through CK prg, will be briefing the helpers this sunday. Thank God for extra hands to help!

Somehow, this week seemed like it is going to be long....however, I am happy to think about Lizhen's hubby coming back home to her this week too! very tough to be taking care of a baby alone. So I am very thankful that these series of parent talks are targeted at HUSBANDS.

Enjoy

Help!

Finally I managed to receive the ck prg from Serene. Praise God. Now, I am wondering who are the folks in my team??? How to allocate when I do not have the updated list. I am so haywire! Rather so half- hearted!

Lord, please help me put this prg in place so that someone will benefit it. Let me see throught your eyes and well.....those who forgive less loves less. I tot it was interesting to read it tis morning! So forgive more then can love more!

Today is a rainy day, I remembered my girlfriend always sing this song, "I'm only happy when it rains..." So cute and then she will shake and dance to the beat!

100%

It's truly amazing how God works in my life! While I fret and stressed out coz of jere's work. I am often reminded to rest in HIs presence and seek His face. In my panic, I tried everything to get jere to learn and score 100%. Then in my tears, I cried to God how hopeless and helpless I am.

Well...to date, that boy had been scoring 100% for consecutively 3 weeks for all his chineses and English Spelling!

So the point is let go and let God take control my life.

Here's some pix of my teachers....he was trying to eat the wood.

Breastfeeding and me

Yesterday, after service...I pondered upon my life. There are so many things to praise God and thank our Lord for....yet my face does not show them all! My hubby often reminded me to smile more especially on Sunday...yet...again and again..I failed myself and my lord.

Before I share, I would like you to hear this great announcement! There is a new post called "Senior home affairs minister". And the next ladder to climb is probably Mentor home affairs minister. My friend sue was promoted! She was appraised based on last year 2007 performance and yes! She scored an A, which calls for an increment and yahoo recognition! I was over the moon to hear that this is one post out for grab! So go and grab it asap! Isn't it still very thrilling and exciting to be a SAHM!! Got lots to do and creative space to explore!

Okay. Remember when I started bf Khloe....first the milk don't arrive.So pray and eat all the food that will trigger the flow. once the suckling continues..the milk will eventually arrive...I enter into the land filled with milk and honey. since the milk is established, I continuted to bf coz of the ease and benefits of it. Finally I start to think of weaning...squeezed lemon and stucked them on!!

Just like my life!!!be it wanting a life partner, a baby, a career, a school and etc . I will pray and do all I can to get what is my desire. Then I perserve in seeking and doing everything in my power to be closer to my goal. Once I get my desired goal, sometimes I may continue to work on it, and sometimes or rather most of the time, I will neglect it, put it aside and let it turn cold....an unwanted doll. When will I start to store treasures in heaven where moth and rust do not destroy...when will I move out of my comfort zone and serve the least?

ASHAMED.

Oh! Another wonderful story to share which happened yesterday. I was early for service, so I took Jere, Xavier and Khloe for a walk along Expo. Seeing Xavier holding on to his autobot, I asked the Lord to give me something worthy to share about the kingdom. The code "666" in rev 13:16-17 "He also forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to recieve a mark on his right hand or on his forehead." I told them that during the end times, people will have this mark. Surprised and curious, they asked me about how can this happen. Then along the way, I pointed to them the numerous machinery around us which require mircochip to operate. They sought and pointed to me while walking. I told them that when I was young, there was't so many of such machinery around. People chose and not forgetting the we were created in HIs own image, we have the ability to think and create both good and bad things. I asked them to choose...to give their mind to create good or bad things.. to create more machines...? Just like the cube has enormous power, so is our mind. I asked them if they will surrender and always ask God to help them? Of course, they din answered me...totally lost in what I said..I tot!

Later during service, I asked them what I can pray for them. Xavier wanted a PSB, Jere wanted a mark on this forehead! I was thrown off again!

Everyone.....I got in to SHPS!

Hi all...I am pleased to announce that my ordeal of worries and doubts and fears and of course shifting is paid off! I got into SHPS! Ha!Ha! And Amen and glory to GOD.

anyone interested?

Here's some bags which my sister is selling. Interested? The pink one is $80, the orange Coach $480, Pink Burberry $300, White Coach $400, Red Prada $900!

Women and bad bags!

Balloting!

Yesterday, at 8pm, I had logged in to see if there was going to be balloting. 45 places, 24 within 1km, 8 within 2km, and 30 outside 2km. So there will be balloting for those who are outside 2km for only 13 places left.

Then I had a nightmare! I dreamed that Brenda from SHPS called me to tell me that there will be balloting! I freak out in unbelief! I read clearly and had spoken to Brenda and others to clarify this part about the within 1 km thingy! Then again..is it overwhelming response?What a relief when I awoke at 6.30am, refusing to return to bed! Tonight, gotta check online again to confirm that Jereboy is in! Praise God!

Well for one thing to share about this school is that when we decided to shift from punggol to Tampines, we had decided that it must be close enuf so that we don't have to pay for transport. Not realising that this balloting thingy gives priority for people who stay within 1 km then 1-2 km then last 2km outside the school diameter! So praise God for helping us with this decision.

Also, when we purchase this unit successfully, without our part of delay, I had told God that it will be a sign that I will get into SHPS!

Today fast n pray booklet talks about the thing that is stuck in my heart! How can I let my husband go... to a place not developed. How can I face each day wondering if my children will be fatherless, yet I am reminded that HE will be My Father....

How to let go and trust God and encourage my husband to go and pursue what he should do? Seriously must pray for an undivided heart.

Yesterday, my mum came and stayed with me. I was so happy esp. my hubby went to pick her from Purmei. I know this is how Jeff shows that he loves me! KEE!!Ke!!

Check out Khloe's new friend. My neighbour's niece..Pakistan blood..beautiful hor!

letz try

Been wondering and trying to keep update with times...such as FACEBOOK...but still sitting on it. Now trying to download photos from my handphone.

Later today, i will be going to SHPS to continue volunteering in the HARP program. And tomorrow will register for Jeremiah. Again after today, I will tell Jeff about ballotting!

Interestingly, I recalled that 2 weeks ago, Yeedi told me to have faith. It's funny when she said that I am P's G12, so the faith level must be greater! Wow! kana kick! Gotta remeber that at all times and all place, must be alert to hold on to my faith.

Just can't stop grumbling these days about the possibility of balloting!

Blessings

"I gave them a heart to know me, that I am the LORD. They will be my people, and I will be their God." Jeremiah 24:7

How truly blessed I am to be identified with our maker!

Bless the Poor.

This 40 day fast has set my heart heavy on these words....instead of often feeding the already well- fed gang, can I change to find a totally new breed of friends to mingle?

How can I shift my value system and demonstrate what God commands me to do? Please note that by feeding the poor will not make me a better Christian. The act of humility in my heart which must take place then the change of lifestlye will probably catch HIS atttention.

"I wanna be like Jesus...I wanna follow Him... I wanna be like Jesus, over and over and over again...."

So tighten my belt and be on a lookout, gotta kick myself out of comfort living and enter into a land filled with "milk and honey".

I surely hope this 40 day fast will make me more like Jesus- my saviour and friend! Do you know Him yet?

some more

Amazing Grace..."how come?"

Great!

Actually just trying to share some funny stuff that happen at home.Hope you will know what to do to entertain your children too! Easy, fun and lots to talk about!

I'm back!

Yahoo! For one main reason why I had not updated my blog is that I had forgotten my password since I shifted here in late Feb. Thank God for Esther and pof course my beloved who had left his laptop for my pleasure.

"How come"....in every 10 minutes is what you will hear in my palace here for these few months now! It is almost driving me nuts! So I resort to "I dun know!" Fed up and annoyed with the repeated questions, I had chosen not to eloborate.

Anyway..just to share..this thursday I will be registering my dear son to St Hildas. Still learning to trust Him...

Gotta go...She is touching everything on this workdesk of my hubby!

Cya!

Puttin up

Hi all..greetings!

I have been putting UP in eastpoint fot almost a week now! Life is even more challenging since I am putting up in MIL house. Some days are tough and most days are alright.

Yesterday went over to tampines to pick up a ladder for my mil. To my horrid, my main door was wide open withour any workers inside laboring! I was mad! I called my contractor and told him that no matter how short the time taken for your worker to go downstairs to throw whatever thing, he must have the door locked! My entire house possession at stake! Was upset but must exercise grace, that's why I had held my anger as the house was for my pleasure and not to create wrath and build sin into my imperfect life! Think about it....how many times do you allow yourself to be angry. Order of the day is self controlled or rather a spirit led life!

I told a brother yesterday that one must have a rested spirit to enjoy life. What I had left unsaid was a unrested spirit will lead to many discontment. You agree?

Falling in love- lust of the eyes

Seems like I cannot get scrapbooking off my mind. Oh no! But my lord says thatI will not have the time to do it! True lah.

Yesterday nite, I went back to pack and had not packed all my books in the studyroom. Yet the record holds 14 boxes! Later, I will go back and pack again. MIL will help me with the children.

Actually absence really makes the heart fonder. Each time when my hubby is away, I will miss him alot. I will think of him and wonder when he will return. Also I really salute those mums who have "travelling" husbands. Quite a feat to have their husbands often outstation. I truly respect these lot of mum. Of course one such mum is Joyce! I happened to meet her at eastpoint shopping. Her "days" are different from mine. I just wonder how did she manage when her hubby was flying most of the time? Anyway, I would like to use all my time carefully. It was precious to hear the sweet voice over the phone last nite. And I eager await his call tonite. I know he knows how I feel. It is not the fact that he is not around to HELP that matters...it is the warm and comfort to know that Jeff is always looking out for me...caring and wanting to know how was my day like that makes me ......aiyah...only I know how he feels about me that matters. That's why I chose him. And that's why he chose me to be his wife. Amazing! We had known one another for almost a decade now. Yes, we are married for half a decade now!

Hack lah!

All the tiles are almost hacked off now. So I am praying that we can shift in by late feb.

"God doesn't choose your mate for you. While He may have in HIS mind a best partner for your life, in the final analysis, it is YOUR decision. Prov 18:22 "He who FINDS a wife finds a good thing..."God will guide, lead and direct you."
(Havest Times pg. 20)

But before HE can do that, I think we need to be in a right relationship with God, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Otherwise, how can the Lord guide and lead if you do not know HIm in the first place?

So wives, wives-to be...work our relationship with the LOrd.

Overreacting

Yesterday I was reminded that one esp. SAHM should abstain from this behaviour. It was an encouraging or rather comforting session last night with my ladies. We shared on parenting joys and woes, as a SAHM and a working mum.

Our God is great, he is faithful and just and will forgive us. His grace abounds in our lives as we perseve in seeking Him and doing the will of our abba father.

Oh! I learnt that overreacting is a word used to describe me pretty well. And should I hear it often, I think I should progress to be less reactive towards my children's behaviour. To train our children to be swift to obey is another art lesson that I should take daily. Again, my training for this blog thingy requires me to take time away from princess and to log in daily till I'm quite proficient in it. Meanwhile, princess is a couch now.... So training children to listen is the same old saying " practise make perfect." Interestingly, even adults are not swift to obey so how can children do that? Remembering that we are first generation christians...so we will raise a GODLY GENERATION after us! Awesome. So like it or not, brace ourselves and get to task....be swift to listen to our master...our lord.

Repent- Joel

This morning I had the peace and encounter with my Lord. He spoke to me in his book of Joel. It calls for repentence and declaration of fast for blessing to flow.

I am assured of His love. As a SAHM, I am often faced with the unpleasant task of disciplining my children. That's the tough part of home ministry- training. I learn that training requires great amount of patience and love. Bottom line is my worship with God. Am I deepening my roots in HIM? only He is the source of living water, one that truly satisfy.

Later, we will be collecting keys fro our seller!Hooray!

Just take note.

Where is the dumb girl who turns on a deaf ear to a blind date?

Good Morning!

This morning jere had left for school. He did not tell me that he needs to bring his readers and I know that he will be "punished" for not getting his flashcards cut out!

Yesterday, I am reminded as SAHM, I should be concern more on his spiritual aspect not so much of academic. However, it seems like I am weighed down by jereboy's chinese and blah blah blah....I am not worried for his spiritual life as I see that he does know who is God and had demonstrated his understanding. What I have not seen this far is his demonstration of love for Him. Through his worship, I saw change...but does God see as I see? God weighs a man's heart. How can I weigh my son's heart? So through faith will I serve, in quietness and confidence will be my strength....

Then again, I was reminded that SAHM is a vey busy ministry and Pastor enjoyed herself in those decade that she spent with her children. Do I say this now? Will I say it again when I am half a century old? Silly! Of course I do. Or else why should I make such a decision! You may wonder...

First day of school

Today is the first day of school for Jereboy. After he put on his new uniform, I gave him milk and then off to school. So here am I back to routine in eastpoint, playing with princess and trying to get some new things done up.

Well... I think I am going to start with giving Jereboy 50cent a day and see how much he can save! Quite a feat for me as I am trying to be consistent in the midst of the shift.

Also...will be getting a swimming costume and start swimming since everyday I will be here! Of course main reason is to stay fit...haven;t been exercising for a long long time! Wish me fit!