Do work! Do work!

Oh dear...princess is behaving the same way I deliver myself before them. I guess I won't need a mirror soon! Kinda bad....she goes "do work! Do work!" each time we are seated on the dinning area. She will "boss" around me and even "ssshhh!" me when I talk while she is doodling.

Anyway...I can't wait for the house to be ready. Still haven't go for first appointment....may delay as a result of my mistake! Argrrr...very fed up with HDB...no sense system!

gotta go...and supervise Jeremiah now else once edict is passed..it is irrevocable!

Faith Faith Jie Jie

It has been quite a while that Khloe has been chanting faith faith jie jie each time she sees anything in pink! I must give all glory to God that she is picking up at a rate that only God knows is best for her. Perhaps this is one time that it is good not to have any expectation on her and be super amazed that God is faithful no matter how unfaithful I am.(instead of training her with ABC, I am blogging!) WangShang will soon pass an edict for me if I do not "wise" up!

Oh a super nice news...yesterday I had the kids to pray for Jeff's trip to East Timor..I shared about the country and the kids had to pray for protection for dad and "he will not being drown..." prayed Jere. I had told them that dad needs to river cross so it might be dangerous...anyway...his trip is cancelled. I was kinda looking forward for him to be away for so many days and lead a life with 2 kids...trying to be funny again! So not time for me to be so adventurous. So that means that he gets to spend the public holidays with the kids and of course khloe's birthday! I was still figuring out how to explain to the kids about celebrating without Jeff. So be happy for me as we will get more time to be together.

In fact, I never think much about little time spent with kids until I noticed that those Saturday when Jeff has no meeting with Pastor in the morning. The whole Saturday is quite alot of time. So if any of you readers...who think that your hubby is always not around...think about the noble things that your hubby is doing..it will put a smile on your face. This is true when the bible mentions that your husband sits at the city gate in Proverbs. SO since such a wise man says so..shouldn't we heed his advice ladies?

Shaggy dog

No more dancing princess...it is "shaggy dog" and "below eight". She has been watching and chanting endlessly in the dawning hours. :(

I am happy that my blog has been quite a hit to friends close and far. So it is a pretty good way to be updated.

Yesterday, laoye and I attended his primary school friend's wedding. I was seated between 2 pregs, guess who eat more? ME! I think I kinda shock the guests as they watched me peeling one prawns after another! I keep telling myself to be on diet and yet my sinful nature always take over. "I always do the things that I do not want to do!" Do you?

"Oh...diet next Monday onwards..."
"relax lah...got 2 kids liao!"
"slim down then must buy more clothes..."
"mum likes me this way"
"got strength to carry princess"
These are my nonsense excuses. Please don't follow me. "A little sleep..a little...be a sluggard..."

My beloved brother used to tell me," Listen to what I say but don't follow what I do!"

Funny

I am reading a book and find this one funny.
"Why didn't you call me" An adult asked an caucasian little girl.
Guess what was her reply?

Consider this statement made by a book I am also reading now,
"The psychological consequences of sinful behaviour should be experienced by the guilty." I totally agree that one should take responsibility over the choices made today or ever made and will make. Prayer changes things, sometimes it may help to turn things around, and sometimes it gets to the worst! So what? Does it change who the one we turn to for help? Since the answer is not what we want to hear or not willing to accept, does it change the fact about the person we had asked for help? The fact that we seek God should convince ourselves that HE has all the answer and HE is the best candidate to hear us out.

My point is. WHatever choices we make coupled with prayer will not make us escape the fact that we need to take personal responsibility. Hence be it a sinful choices....we have to be tough to stick with all the "shit" and go through whatever guilty or shattered dreams and still love the one who answers our prayer. There should NEVER be "Oh!! I had prayed and God told me to..." Instead I think a more responsible person should say, "I had prayed and am glad that God hears my prayers."

I am totally put off when we can't cope with bad choices made. fyi, I had bought a n old flat, need to start to refinance the 5 room, I am not working, have 2 kids, need to renovate....so how? Will it be a bad choice? My answer is NO! I will live by it and pray for all the good things to happen as a result of this decision I had made! Of course, I always tell my Lord, " never mind lah...don't be stress...if we can still be happy...we are already good advertisement for God!" Don't you agree?

Tuesday morning

This morning, I left my comfort zone....behaved like an auntie. Let me tell you why...I left eastpoint at 8am, met the office crowd in the bus...squeezed in and of course...nice folks gave their seat for me as I was with my princess. Glad in t-shirt and shorts and a bun-up hair and slippers, I can't resist thinking how far I am to work on being a fashionable SAHM. Far from princess Khloe, who will insist on dressing up even at home. She refused plain stuff instead she would racksack the closet and picked those "outside" clothes. I felt ashamed with my lack of taste for myself whenever Khloe kicks a fuss for not being able to dress up!

At the market, I went to buy foodless food "roasted pork" as my life will be easier feeding my prince later in the afternoon. By the time I reached punggol, prince will be famished and hence will be cranky. So to give him what he wants for lunch will help me settle him while I will speed off into the kitchen dishing out some food for princess. Auntie life!

Anyway...such life of travelling will be ceasing soon. I am praying the seller will let us have the house ealier to renovate so that I can celebrate CNY like a "tai tai". So I want to thank my heavenly father for making all these possible. Without his divine order...I will be quite miserable. So my new life will begin a new chapter when I shift to Tampines! Yeah! Oh! I also want to thank all those who had prayed for us and my kids who had been diligently praying with me. Goodbye Auntie!

Duno why

I duno why I have been feeling blue. Been thinking about how to lead a happy life and a responsible life! Have you ever wonder why we are on earth for? For work and work and give birth and give birth? Maybe I shouldn't even start my sentences with "i". Rather who wants me to lead such a life? Isn't it "I"..so why am I still feeling so irresponsible about it? Perhaps I have not been conducting my life the right way..maybe the way "everyone else should" way...again will I be happy will I be free...

Tonight, I will be meeting my beautiful and fantastic 3 mothers! So awesome...so cool to meet and share our views about "Motherhood" in the Christian perspective. Then again...any other perspective will do for me? I am sure I sounded confused...actually it is troubled. SAHM does have space in mind and heart to ponder how to get our life straighten up.

Not that I am unhappy leading this life...I just believe that there is something more!

Got to think of Christmas party...where to invite people?....I told Jeff that maybe being a volunteer will be an open door for me to meet new people. In the first place...we have such things as new people and old people??? See how I have led my life so carelessly..people are always NEW! Isn't it? I wouldn't want to be labeled as old people! Will God see me as old people? Is my husband thinking that I am a old wife??

Talking rubbish???

Finally I'm back

It has been wonderful staying at home with my kids. Indeed home sweet home. How I wish to settle down and put a stop this lifestyle asap.

Holidays are coming so I will get to stay at home more often. I see that Nov will be another exciting month...SAHM must be a planner else time will pass me by....then as I look back...I will be sorry for myself.

God will deliver me...soon I hope! Aiyo..gota go, Khloe is dismantling the printer now.

Thank God is Friday

Today, I will be visiting my mum. I love Friday as I can spend the afternoon with her and her grandchildren. Of course with the absence of my beloved dad. Every Friday, I will be reminded of days with him and Jere. Jere best "listenmate". Jere would rattle non stop and he would listen and joke with him....guess this will be jere's memory of him. What about Jere's memory of his mother - ME? Must build treasures box of love, joy, laughter and encouragement...so that when he is old, he can share these GOOD traits of me to his children! Tat's what I call nationbuilders, generation builders - SAHM! What a awesome task to complete...till death do us part with this responsibilities! sounds like wedding vows...rite?

dancing princesses

It has been 2 days in a row, Khloe has been watching "the 12 dancing princesses". I was trying to get her to be graceful and been tiptoeing around. Quite fun, as I have to recall my basic dancing poise.

I wanted to learn ballet when I was young instead my mum had signed me up for chinese folk dancing. My hubby often teased me to be a true blue "Chinatown" girl. Well...I grew up in China street, watched how pigs were slaughted amd skinned. Smelt the stench that arose from the burning every night if I sleep at 11plus. It was memorable. My best friend, Susan will come over to play barbie doll with me till 3plus..then we sleep. Or we will walk to boat Quay and chat, watched couples hug and hold hands together. We wondered we ever reached that day....sigh...would I be able to have the grace, patience and trust to allow my princess and prince to wonder till so late?? How will I be able to do it. Then Jeff's word will linger into my tot system"...Katie..it is by grace that we can raise a godly generation." So back to basic, trust God and keep His commands for this is my duty to Him.

Talking about true blue chinatown girl...I have a chi-na look, likes to wear Chi-na clothes and still likes to go chinatown! Can I give my kids a wonderful and at least fond memorable childhood? Do I have the courage to trust or chicken out by possessing them 24/7?

Yesterday, I also received a call from a ex-colleague and old good friend. We had gone partying togther while she was a graduate, I was on contract..... P had asked if I would like to return to work as a part-timer. So nice to be remembered. gota go..khloe is snatching the keyboard from me again

weddings and decision

Wedding vow is the most binding agreement any man and woman can enter into. Can one make mistake? Yes! but not this marriage vow....till death do us part. If buying or selling a house is a big decision, a vow made before God and Men is far more binding. It remains sacred whether we like it or not, whether people chicken out in their decision.

All of us have to be responsible for every decision that we make. So if I had made a bad one, I just have to carry on paying the price like a loan. If I am indebted to HDB, then whether I like this house or not now, I still have to pay via giro. Therefore, why is it that we can't just carry on and live with the bad decision???Why am I so upset watching the lives around me spining this way. Why? uhh..

Today, I am very deeply troubled.

Sunday

Yesterday, I spent an afternoon with Jere alone. We went to city hall and Mirina square. I resisted the idea of "me" shopping. I went to all the shops that he wanted to go. We were happy. Especially for me...the lost feeling of just me and him. I din realise that it had been so long since I last spent time with him alone.

It is thursday

I am so excited to meet my girls tonite! I had gained so much doing and teaching the book " Power of Motherhood" by Nancy Campbell.

I had shared with Pastor that learning the principles and doing them are different. Acting in love and knowing that we ought to love our kids are almost world apart. She commented that many of us need to learn to love our kids when we start staying at home. How true. I had tot that I was loving my kids when I was working. Naturally with little contact points, kids are loveable. The interesting point is like dating and marriage...

Yesterday I also received a sms from my previous boss. He wondered if I had turned yellow staying at home! He is rite, better start exercising to be in "top" form and stay healthy by forsaking junk food and embrace "brown" food! Certainly have to keep up with read your bible, pray everday, pray everday and you'll grow grow grow!

Oh! yesterday Urban section also addressed on dressing at home...yup! will work on looking good even at home. I am now considering keeping T-shirts and shorts as sleepwear. So going to NTUC will require some tidying up.

Wonders

I guess I must set my record rite! Just listing them down is the first step that I am taking for the month of October.

1. cooking class demonstration for ladies...to prepare my singles how to win their boyfriends



2. Garb swop or facial retreat.



3. share on "finding the rite mate" or "Being the rite mate"...still thinking on the topic. I guess I have to address this issue to my ladies.

other matters to resolve asap

1. testimony for anniversay



2. baptism



3. dinner treats with couples

So I think this month will be as usual busy. When was staying at home boring?!

I also figure out that I need to order my life in such a way that I can spend personal time with each of my kid. Only have two yet already struggling with time management. Wonder how will life be if I am still working! So Thank God for being able to stay at home. Yesterday at PM, I learnt that anytime is rite for us, but God's time is not anytime. So it is our choice to follow our own time or to choose His timing.

I am happy to be the ring bearer. Look how cool I am! BTW...I have full marks for my spelling!

flower girl, ring bearer and me

I just said to my hubby," A we are now be like Susan and CS!" I was watching Shaggy Dog at 9pm, Jere was already asleep and Khloe said she wanted to sleep. I told her to "sleep lah". A while later, I realised that she was not in the hall with me (I can be a TV glue). Quickly, I went to ask Jeff who was doing work if he had seen Khloe(house like veri big). I went to their bedroom and found that my princess had gone to bed on her own! What an amazing scene!

By 10am, we cuddled at our sofa and munched mercilessly on potato chips/ foodless food! We beamed as we finally can sit and laze around like that!

So I am very delighted to announce that I am almost at par with my heroine Susan liao! Ha! Ha! Soon I can also watch video with my hubi too! just wait and see...