spirit of contentment

I lost the ealier post. gotta write it again....to sum up. i want to rejoice and celebrate my son's completion of exam.

No matter what grades, I must encourage him to develop good attitudes towards life and studies. I had refused to reward him with yoyo. instead he traded for a movie with the 3 of us. He recollected the one time I went with him for pizza. such a sweet boy.

green pasture

Learning to be content is easy now. Coz someone told me that if I water my garden everyday, it will be green. So I need not look over the other side and hoping for it to happen.

I had been reading and enjoy learning more about myself and God. Half my time, mothering, and the other half, enjoying life. What could I ask for....I'm thankful to my great mentor, my supportive mum, my cute sister, my patient husband, my annoying children, my faithful friends...all for my pleassure ... to learn and love life.

So what's the purpose of life....worship. How??....cleaning the table, mopping the floor,repeating instructions and etc...in the name of being a servant. Am I, Will I be always humble...I struggle. yet, I know my struggle is not a losing battle. I am sure to win.

come to the rat race.....Jere's chinese oral is next week. I tot of a brilliant idea to get im to memorise the 2 tang shi that will be tested. Ha!Ha! after school, if he dun memorise, he simply can't watch any TV programmes!!!!wicked...very wicked....but it works!!!2 nights, and he is almost quite a polished tang shi scholar...i pray lah. well...the rest is up to him. still gota get im to memorise 2 more picture conversation passages else, he is sure dumbstruck! God will help us.

hello

since last week, i had been very free...had not felt so rested for such a long time. I really praise God and thank God for this break. I enjoyed myself, sitting on my sofa, reading my book and breaking fast at home. It had been wonderful.

before that could happen, I had felt miserable because i was retrenched. one of my student was transferred to korean school and had no time for tuition, while another was unhappy with me. I felt unwanted, and for a while useless....then again...I fell into mild depression, i can;t sleep, very annoyed with almost everything and everyone. that lasted for about 2-3 days. in the midst of my praying and reading...i knew that i must ride the tide else i will sink and die. I will not let it happen.. i had not start living in the first place. I mean living the way I wanted. now, staying at home is what I want, but again... i struggle with motherhood. I read an article which cheered me, it is about loving chldren and family but hating motherhood. the author is none other than a mum. anyway, the story directed me to focus...my enemy is not motherhood, but rather my accusation towards myself. that means....listening to satan lor....

gota go...

finally

today was the first time I had lunch with the rest of the Tai tai. I am very happy to lunch with them as the feeling came back again....I have friends again.

Life is so exciting...God is creative...He knows what to entertain us as different point og our lives.

Just received a sms from my piano teacher that she will no longer be teaching Jere anymore...gota find a new teacher. His piano lessons had never been easy for me. Help me Lord.

Jere is back to school, he is very excited as now he has a new appointment. God is very good to him. Khloe is enjoying school....thank God.

June holidays

Last week, I met up with our matchmaker and talked about our children. I also managed to meet up with ex colleagues and Ming Ying. Pretty pleased with how I had spent my time. Also, I had been training Jere on skipping and badminton. Quite alright, gotta learn to be encouraging.

its been a long time

hmm...I had been unwell for a while now. Got upset when my body can't seemed to recover...Still clinging to His word....that He is the healer.

Term 2 week 2

I am now learning and teaching my children to thank God for our salvation daily. Also to praise God for who he is... His work on the cross.

I have been reading a book about SEX! Whether one believes he sins or not, he/she will not change the fact that the sun will still shine and the work completed at the cross. How many times, you have heard people turning away from the church, or relationship simply coz they had grown tired or offended in some way. Like it or not, we will have to stand before God to be judged. So continue to lead a "carefree" life...and see how Satan will leave u in the lurch!

I write these because, I had witnessed so many friends' life ruined. They had exchanged short term gains for eternal future/hope!

So happy to hear that Lizhen will be in London till 14 June! Lusting....

Quiet week

Since I have no assignment, I have been enjoying every minute a home. Wnet for a swim today and ha! Ha! I can fit into my new halter neck swim top! Decided to buy a 2 pc, not so sexy ones anymore...Hubby said that I look like auntie!

Been in facebook more than blogging. However...I think blogging is still better than FB. This week, I learnt that I should thank God for my salvation and praise HIM on a daily basis...try...it tones me spiritually.

attitude- sin

As I am reading "Stranger to the road to Emmaus" I learnt alot of new and old things....

Ezekiel 28:16-17 tells me that God, a perfect one could not tolerate Lucifer's sin. Immediately, satan was expelled. So sin in our life has to be dealt with immediately! cannot delay or compromise.

Prov6:16-17 God hates a proud look, God called lucifer's attitude- sin.Many times, even before I scold or yelled at Jere...my attitude towards him is already SIN- very impatient and unwilling to be loving.

Let the weak say I am strong

How I marvel at the work of HIS hands! I was told that Jere's weakness in my eyes may be His purpose for him! I was taken aback upon hearing. My " shut up"! beeter come to a stop! I can't imagaine such a simple thing can so easily be lost in motherhood.

I have to be resolve to stop telling him to shut up or I will have to shut up for the rest of my life. I will have no right over his life and worst still malign the word of God.

such a brutal slap on me. I pray that I will learn.

settle down?

It's been a month since khloe and jeremiah start school. I wi=ould say I am still not settle. Thinking of next week makes me nervous...feeding khloe and helping in HARP? Don;t like the idea but feel that I should contribute more. Also tuition has some changes...

This week, cradle roll will start, and hopefully I will get down to work on the "sex" topic that I hope to share by March. And to work on the CA and "Stranger" book.

willing work 2

These 2 weeks will be hectic...coz of HARP in SHPS. I am quite stress out as I am helping out the program while caring for my 2 children. Forget about Jere since he is in his school...Khloe...gota feed her outside the library where I will be doing crowd control..in fact wondering how can I do that...no chairs and table for khloe to eat and I should be standing there for an hour! thoughts of it already make me nervous.

Another big thingy on my mind is this sunday cradel roll launch! I hope the rest are ok with the schedule and SOW so that I can email to Ps Kin by thursday. I think it is a great idea to print on newsletter so that the parents know who to look for that week.

Then... I am hoping to start meeting Susan and Ps Kin also....then my tuition timing has to change.....this is my stress....

I also wonder if I will get bombarded by the cradle roll schedule arrangement as I had told them that duties will be once every 2 months. Now only 7 of us so will have to tighten and Xiao Xian and Lizhen being away till June also is a challenge for my ladies.

Thankfully, Daphne is ready to take on sessions on her own. I believe that my team are steady people. so I know that my fears are unfounded. Last week, I also saw God moving in our midst as He helped us resolve relationship issues. This week, I praised God for a change of hearts. And my months of unanswered prayer is shedding some light for one of my very precious girl...thank God. And this week I am hearing more good news from near and far...so praise God!

Praise God for a serial that I am enjoying now at 10pm. bye

My life

Yesterday was the first time I went swimming after such a long break from exercise. I had bought a new suit and a new pair of goggles $50!! Well... This expenditure will make me not give up swimming at any cost.

While I was swimming, the joy was mine. I love to swim alone under the hot sun and besides it was not crowded at all. I get to pick my digital locker, and bathroom was clean and most importantly- QUIET. I like to serenity of such afternoon. I must thank God for my season has come....

I am hoping to send Khloe for ballet class soon. Jere is doing alright...like most boys will forget to inform me of his outstanding homework and notes in his bag for 2-3 days without handing in to tch!!! I really detest such people. What to do...gotta reduce my spanking and of course verbal abuse!!!

I had vowed to stop spanking him and I had broken that covenant....I am working on it daily and trying to be more laid back so that I will not continually be pressurized.

Days looking glooming....tuition is cutting down as parents can't afford them. I am still choosing to trust God for our finances. He will make a way for me! I am not idling at home...

Yah..cradle roll will start on 2nd week of Feb. I keep telling Jeff that this is a "itchy" backside project. He reminded me that so long it is for the extension of God's kingdom...DO it HEARTILY. then of course I said AMEN!

Last week I also crashed with my MIL. I had prayed to ask God to contain my anger and help me to talk to my FIL instead. Great! I had a good time pouring my frustration to my FIL instead of confronting my MIL. God really helps me when I am not out to destroy but to build better days with my in laws...

It's the time of the year

Tonight, I am sitting alone, quiet and rested in front of my laptop...thinking that I am on vacation again. Boss is away and I am oTOT with the 2 of them. I told them that we are on our own and we got to watch out for one another.

Khloe is down with stomach flu, now sleeping in my bed. Well...I am praying that she will not have fever and vommiting and ....coz it's going to be a long night...alone...washing up the vomit, cleaning up and comforting her. Lord I pray that tonight and the rest of the nights will be peaceful, Khloe fever will not come in and out and that she will not be cranky. Else I will be crumpy and tired out. Lord help me and you said that you will be with me always..so I can count on you...that I will not be tempted beyond me! In Jesus name
AMEN!
Readers..please keep me in prayer.

school is in

School rocks

Last friday was eventful. Sent Jere to school and sobbed at a corner...seeing im going up for assembly. So irritating having to go through this again....just felt that he had grown up and is going to another milestone.

I prayed that he will excel...esp when we are serving God so actively...must be a good fruit. perhaps this is the stress that I have. Isn;t bearing fruit part of the work of us mothers...or again HS?

Whatever...then I sent Khloe for her PCF...ha ha! I missed her orientation. It was supposed to be in the morning but I had not seen the doc.

Anyway, today being second day of school for this week. I am still going thru separation anxiety. At the back of my mind, I worry that teacher will complain baout Khloe being too domineering and Jere not attentive and ....I guess the list is endless. Until I decide to put them at the foor of the cross...where I am at rest.

O lord...deliver me from such agonising experience...on the other hand. I must thank God that at least I am blogging now withour anyone disturbing. I am free to plan a effective timetable. This week, gota stay focus...settle my children and husband then myself...I mean cropping my hair and doing some retail therapy before Chinese New Year.

Gotta go and settle some ppt for sermon this sunday.