Learning to be content is easy now. Coz someone told me that if I water my garden everyday, it will be green. So I need not look over the other side and hoping for it to happen.
I had been reading and enjoy learning more about myself and God. Half my time, mothering, and the other half, enjoying life. What could I ask for....I'm thankful to my great mentor, my supportive mum, my cute sister, my patient husband, my annoying children, my faithful friends...all for my pleassure ... to learn and love life.
So what's the purpose of life....worship. How??....cleaning the table, mopping the floor,repeating instructions and etc...in the name of being a servant. Am I, Will I be always humble...I struggle. yet, I know my struggle is not a losing battle. I am sure to win.
come to the rat race.....Jere's chinese oral is next week. I tot of a brilliant idea to get im to memorise the 2 tang shi that will be tested. Ha!Ha! after school, if he dun memorise, he simply can't watch any TV programmes!!!!wicked...very wicked....but it works!!!2 nights, and he is almost quite a polished tang shi scholar...i pray lah. well...the rest is up to him. still gota get im to memorise 2 more picture conversation passages else, he is sure dumbstruck! God will help us.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
hello
since last week, i had been very free...had not felt so rested for such a long time. I really praise God and thank God for this break. I enjoyed myself, sitting on my sofa, reading my book and breaking fast at home. It had been wonderful.
before that could happen, I had felt miserable because i was retrenched. one of my student was transferred to korean school and had no time for tuition, while another was unhappy with me. I felt unwanted, and for a while useless....then again...I fell into mild depression, i can;t sleep, very annoyed with almost everything and everyone. that lasted for about 2-3 days. in the midst of my praying and reading...i knew that i must ride the tide else i will sink and die. I will not let it happen.. i had not start living in the first place. I mean living the way I wanted. now, staying at home is what I want, but again... i struggle with motherhood. I read an article which cheered me, it is about loving chldren and family but hating motherhood. the author is none other than a mum. anyway, the story directed me to focus...my enemy is not motherhood, but rather my accusation towards myself. that means....listening to satan lor....
gota go...
before that could happen, I had felt miserable because i was retrenched. one of my student was transferred to korean school and had no time for tuition, while another was unhappy with me. I felt unwanted, and for a while useless....then again...I fell into mild depression, i can;t sleep, very annoyed with almost everything and everyone. that lasted for about 2-3 days. in the midst of my praying and reading...i knew that i must ride the tide else i will sink and die. I will not let it happen.. i had not start living in the first place. I mean living the way I wanted. now, staying at home is what I want, but again... i struggle with motherhood. I read an article which cheered me, it is about loving chldren and family but hating motherhood. the author is none other than a mum. anyway, the story directed me to focus...my enemy is not motherhood, but rather my accusation towards myself. that means....listening to satan lor....
gota go...
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