How I marvel at the work of HIS hands! I was told that Jere's weakness in my eyes may be His purpose for him! I was taken aback upon hearing. My " shut up"! beeter come to a stop! I can't imagaine such a simple thing can so easily be lost in motherhood.
I have to be resolve to stop telling him to shut up or I will have to shut up for the rest of my life. I will have no right over his life and worst still malign the word of God.
such a brutal slap on me. I pray that I will learn.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
settle down?
It's been a month since khloe and jeremiah start school. I wi=ould say I am still not settle. Thinking of next week makes me nervous...feeding khloe and helping in HARP? Don;t like the idea but feel that I should contribute more. Also tuition has some changes...
This week, cradle roll will start, and hopefully I will get down to work on the "sex" topic that I hope to share by March. And to work on the CA and "Stranger" book.
This week, cradle roll will start, and hopefully I will get down to work on the "sex" topic that I hope to share by March. And to work on the CA and "Stranger" book.
Monday, February 2, 2009
willing work 2
These 2 weeks will be hectic...coz of HARP in SHPS. I am quite stress out as I am helping out the program while caring for my 2 children. Forget about Jere since he is in his school...Khloe...gota feed her outside the library where I will be doing crowd control..in fact wondering how can I do that...no chairs and table for khloe to eat and I should be standing there for an hour! thoughts of it already make me nervous.
Another big thingy on my mind is this sunday cradel roll launch! I hope the rest are ok with the schedule and SOW so that I can email to Ps Kin by thursday. I think it is a great idea to print on newsletter so that the parents know who to look for that week.
Then... I am hoping to start meeting Susan and Ps Kin also....then my tuition timing has to change.....this is my stress....
I also wonder if I will get bombarded by the cradle roll schedule arrangement as I had told them that duties will be once every 2 months. Now only 7 of us so will have to tighten and Xiao Xian and Lizhen being away till June also is a challenge for my ladies.
Thankfully, Daphne is ready to take on sessions on her own. I believe that my team are steady people. so I know that my fears are unfounded. Last week, I also saw God moving in our midst as He helped us resolve relationship issues. This week, I praised God for a change of hearts. And my months of unanswered prayer is shedding some light for one of my very precious girl...thank God. And this week I am hearing more good news from near and far...so praise God!
Praise God for a serial that I am enjoying now at 10pm. bye
Another big thingy on my mind is this sunday cradel roll launch! I hope the rest are ok with the schedule and SOW so that I can email to Ps Kin by thursday. I think it is a great idea to print on newsletter so that the parents know who to look for that week.
Then... I am hoping to start meeting Susan and Ps Kin also....then my tuition timing has to change.....this is my stress....
I also wonder if I will get bombarded by the cradle roll schedule arrangement as I had told them that duties will be once every 2 months. Now only 7 of us so will have to tighten and Xiao Xian and Lizhen being away till June also is a challenge for my ladies.
Thankfully, Daphne is ready to take on sessions on her own. I believe that my team are steady people. so I know that my fears are unfounded. Last week, I also saw God moving in our midst as He helped us resolve relationship issues. This week, I praised God for a change of hearts. And my months of unanswered prayer is shedding some light for one of my very precious girl...thank God. And this week I am hearing more good news from near and far...so praise God!
Praise God for a serial that I am enjoying now at 10pm. bye
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
My life
Yesterday was the first time I went swimming after such a long break from exercise. I had bought a new suit and a new pair of goggles $50!! Well... This expenditure will make me not give up swimming at any cost.
While I was swimming, the joy was mine. I love to swim alone under the hot sun and besides it was not crowded at all. I get to pick my digital locker, and bathroom was clean and most importantly- QUIET. I like to serenity of such afternoon. I must thank God for my season has come....
I am hoping to send Khloe for ballet class soon. Jere is doing alright...like most boys will forget to inform me of his outstanding homework and notes in his bag for 2-3 days without handing in to tch!!! I really detest such people. What to do...gotta reduce my spanking and of course verbal abuse!!!
I had vowed to stop spanking him and I had broken that covenant....I am working on it daily and trying to be more laid back so that I will not continually be pressurized.
Days looking glooming....tuition is cutting down as parents can't afford them. I am still choosing to trust God for our finances. He will make a way for me! I am not idling at home...
Yah..cradle roll will start on 2nd week of Feb. I keep telling Jeff that this is a "itchy" backside project. He reminded me that so long it is for the extension of God's kingdom...DO it HEARTILY. then of course I said AMEN!
Last week I also crashed with my MIL. I had prayed to ask God to contain my anger and help me to talk to my FIL instead. Great! I had a good time pouring my frustration to my FIL instead of confronting my MIL. God really helps me when I am not out to destroy but to build better days with my in laws...
While I was swimming, the joy was mine. I love to swim alone under the hot sun and besides it was not crowded at all. I get to pick my digital locker, and bathroom was clean and most importantly- QUIET. I like to serenity of such afternoon. I must thank God for my season has come....
I am hoping to send Khloe for ballet class soon. Jere is doing alright...like most boys will forget to inform me of his outstanding homework and notes in his bag for 2-3 days without handing in to tch!!! I really detest such people. What to do...gotta reduce my spanking and of course verbal abuse!!!
I had vowed to stop spanking him and I had broken that covenant....I am working on it daily and trying to be more laid back so that I will not continually be pressurized.
Days looking glooming....tuition is cutting down as parents can't afford them. I am still choosing to trust God for our finances. He will make a way for me! I am not idling at home...
Yah..cradle roll will start on 2nd week of Feb. I keep telling Jeff that this is a "itchy" backside project. He reminded me that so long it is for the extension of God's kingdom...DO it HEARTILY. then of course I said AMEN!
Last week I also crashed with my MIL. I had prayed to ask God to contain my anger and help me to talk to my FIL instead. Great! I had a good time pouring my frustration to my FIL instead of confronting my MIL. God really helps me when I am not out to destroy but to build better days with my in laws...
Monday, January 12, 2009
It's the time of the year
Tonight, I am sitting alone, quiet and rested in front of my laptop...thinking that I am on vacation again. Boss is away and I am oTOT with the 2 of them. I told them that we are on our own and we got to watch out for one another.
Khloe is down with stomach flu, now sleeping in my bed. Well...I am praying that she will not have fever and vommiting and ....coz it's going to be a long night...alone...washing up the vomit, cleaning up and comforting her. Lord I pray that tonight and the rest of the nights will be peaceful, Khloe fever will not come in and out and that she will not be cranky. Else I will be crumpy and tired out. Lord help me and you said that you will be with me always..so I can count on you...that I will not be tempted beyond me! In Jesus name
AMEN!
Readers..please keep me in prayer.
Khloe is down with stomach flu, now sleeping in my bed. Well...I am praying that she will not have fever and vommiting and ....coz it's going to be a long night...alone...washing up the vomit, cleaning up and comforting her. Lord I pray that tonight and the rest of the nights will be peaceful, Khloe fever will not come in and out and that she will not be cranky. Else I will be crumpy and tired out. Lord help me and you said that you will be with me always..so I can count on you...that I will not be tempted beyond me! In Jesus name
AMEN!
Readers..please keep me in prayer.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
School rocks
Last friday was eventful. Sent Jere to school and sobbed at a corner...seeing im going up for assembly. So irritating having to go through this again....just felt that he had grown up and is going to another milestone.
I prayed that he will excel...esp when we are serving God so actively...must be a good fruit. perhaps this is the stress that I have. Isn;t bearing fruit part of the work of us mothers...or again HS?
Whatever...then I sent Khloe for her PCF...ha ha! I missed her orientation. It was supposed to be in the morning but I had not seen the doc.
Anyway, today being second day of school for this week. I am still going thru separation anxiety. At the back of my mind, I worry that teacher will complain baout Khloe being too domineering and Jere not attentive and ....I guess the list is endless. Until I decide to put them at the foor of the cross...where I am at rest.
O lord...deliver me from such agonising experience...on the other hand. I must thank God that at least I am blogging now withour anyone disturbing. I am free to plan a effective timetable. This week, gota stay focus...settle my children and husband then myself...I mean cropping my hair and doing some retail therapy before Chinese New Year.
Gotta go and settle some ppt for sermon this sunday.
I prayed that he will excel...esp when we are serving God so actively...must be a good fruit. perhaps this is the stress that I have. Isn;t bearing fruit part of the work of us mothers...or again HS?
Whatever...then I sent Khloe for her PCF...ha ha! I missed her orientation. It was supposed to be in the morning but I had not seen the doc.
Anyway, today being second day of school for this week. I am still going thru separation anxiety. At the back of my mind, I worry that teacher will complain baout Khloe being too domineering and Jere not attentive and ....I guess the list is endless. Until I decide to put them at the foor of the cross...where I am at rest.
O lord...deliver me from such agonising experience...on the other hand. I must thank God that at least I am blogging now withour anyone disturbing. I am free to plan a effective timetable. This week, gota stay focus...settle my children and husband then myself...I mean cropping my hair and doing some retail therapy before Chinese New Year.
Gotta go and settle some ppt for sermon this sunday.
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